What it feels like implementing change you don't believe in

What does it feel like trying to implement a change you might not fully understand or believe?
Ronald Laing, psychiatrist gives his thoughts from 40 years ago.
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Knots by R.D. Laing, 1970
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There is something I don't know
that I am supposed to know.
I don't know what it is I don't know,
and yet am supposed to know,
And I feel I look stupid
if I seem both not to know it
and not to know what it is I don't know.
Therefore, I pretend I know it.
This is nerve-wracking since I don't
know what I must pretend to know.
Therefore, I pretend I know everything.

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